var gaJsHost = (("https:" == document.location.protocol) ? "https://ssl." : "http://www."); document.write(unescape("%3Cscript src='" + gaJsHost + "google-analytics.com/ga.js' type='text/javascript'%3E%3C/script%3E")); try { var pageTracker = _gat._getTracker("UA-397427-7"); pageTracker._trackPageview(); } catch(err) {}Tumblr (3.0; @ruzzseconds)http://seconds.ruzz.org/<p>you suppose if we unclenched our gritted teeth, and unballed our fingers.. we’d just float off?</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/435006568http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/435006568Mon, 08 Mar 2010 11:20:07 -0700<p>you wanna find your fingers on skin, or know why you can’t. you wanna say things with your body. or at least be given audience. you want to feel there is no loss, not just know it. you want to give freely, take freely. not hang on. not believe your own bullshit. you want to build a better life through dirt and hair, bone and blood. you want to evolve past burning. you want to take everyone with you when you do. you want to reach out, and think the heat under your fingers is reason enough. you want someone to understand it should be enough.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/434244832http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/434244832Mon, 08 Mar 2010 00:28:26 -0700ruzzlifepain<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kyvkhhf4Cv1qzpbolo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>(c) 2010 i.m. ruzz</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/430704179http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/430704179Sat, 06 Mar 2010 12:22:29 -0700photoruzzmarlabeauty<p>When trying to make something beautiful you have to be willing to work through uncertainty.. And willing to “waste” your efforts on what might be nothing but a learning experience. You have to let go of control.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/412959792http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/412959792Fri, 26 Feb 2010 01:40:04 -0700<p>i’ve been rolling over. playing on my belly. again. letting everyone and everything run over me because i couldn’t get up to the fight. felt beat down. felt sorry for myself. felt a bit cursed even. i’ve been here before and i know how to get back. you close up the parts that can’t fight, curl your fingers and start throwing.</p> <p>and don’t stop. don’t ever stop.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/405522811http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/405522811Mon, 22 Feb 2010 14:37:50 -0700<p>i’ve started, in earnest, another blog. yes, another. the goal of this new blog is to give a place to speak in my normal, non-arts focused voice. a place to run things up the pole and see what shakes out, to reblog interesting stuff, to just dump all that extra brain sludge that comes from being kicked off facebook and having no one to really discuss things with anymore. so with that in mind.. i give you <a title="The Daily Ruzz" target="_blank" href="http://daily.ruzz.org/">The Daily Ruzz</a>.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/360140946http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/360140946Fri, 29 Jan 2010 14:18:11 -0700<p>sometimes i don’t know what i’m doing. or why i’m doing it. sometimes i’m surprised by the outcome. sometimes i’m wrecked.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/357486170http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/357486170Wed, 27 Jan 2010 23:23:39 -0700<img src="http://30.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kwp2orI19s1qzdiqvo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>(via <a href="http://stuckinntraffic.tumblr.com/" target="_blank">stuckinntraffic</a>)</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/356788239http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/356788239Wed, 27 Jan 2010 16:05:33 -0700“Normal is getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying for - in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car, and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it.”<br/><br/> - <em>Ellen Goodman (via <a href="http://kari-shma.tumblr.com/" target="_blank">kari-shma</a>) (via <a href="http://quote-book.tumblr.com/" target="_blank">quote-book</a>) (via <a href="http://thanksforstanding.tumblr.com/" target="_blank">thanksforstanding</a>) (via <a href="http://fringesofmind.tumblr.com/" target="_blank">fringesofmind</a>)</em>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/356626526http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/356626526Wed, 27 Jan 2010 14:07:53 -0700<p>there is no loss, only change.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/355091294http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/355091294Tue, 26 Jan 2010 17:00:38 -0700<p>i walk this cold quiet like it’s dead skin. cautious. observant. this path is worn before me, behind me. there was life coursing through here once. i smell the sweet stink of it. the pungent urgency of human need hangs long. now though there are only strings of white frost, the crack and thrum of winter river, and the hollow lost echo of my own footsteps. i am wedged uncomfortable between the dead and the dying.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/347889949http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/347889949Fri, 22 Jan 2010 14:45:33 -0700<img src="http://29.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kwo0o29Q1d1qzpbolo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>lost somewhere in january<br/>(c) 2004-2010 i.m. ruzz’ favorite sin</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/347798519http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/347798519Fri, 22 Jan 2010 13:24:02 -0700“religious rapture has[had] long since given way to aesthetic rapture..”<br/><br/> - <em>julian barnes - nothing to be afraid of</em>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/346369215http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/346369215Thu, 21 Jan 2010 13:17:00 -0700<p>we can live in fear of losing the things we love, or we can love the things we love, but it’s near impossible to do both.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/345077719http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/345077719Wed, 20 Jan 2010 17:46:43 -0700<img src="http://27.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kwgnw5r6Rp1qzpbolo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>(c) 2004-2010 i.m. ruzz’ favorite sin</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/341448575http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/341448575Mon, 18 Jan 2010 14:04:53 -0700<p>i want to narrow so fine, so slight, so focused, my view that all i can see without the full turn of my body is your hips, tiny lines of code heavy with elegance and creativity, and staggeringly beautiful pockets of light come captured through expensive german glass.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/341444830http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/341444830Mon, 18 Jan 2010 14:02:29 -0700<p>you can try to meet hate with deference. or calm. or patience. you can try to meet small dark untrusting hearts with openess, weakness or triviality. you can ignore, avoid, or disregard. you can fetter here and there wasting time or energy on small people with small agendas thinking small thoughts.</p> <p>or you can confront hate with hate. heat with heat. and allow the beauty of violence to discharge any unresolvable differences in character.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/341315278http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/341315278Mon, 18 Jan 2010 12:34:14 -0700<p>What goes on in here, doesn’t concern you.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/339048617http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/339048617Sun, 17 Jan 2010 05:21:07 -0700<p>sometimes an eye closed must be a kinda peace. sometimes.</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/335614577http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/335614577Fri, 15 Jan 2010 03:20:40 -0700<p>what makes you think you deserve love at all?</p>http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/332139960http://seconds.ruzz.org/post/332139960Wed, 13 Jan 2010 02:40:28 -0700