you know how things’ll go before you even get there. you see it ten steps before it comes. it’s not rocket science to identify archetypes and see the patterns. it’s rocket science to talk yourself out of what you want even when you see it’s impossible. that’s like making heart rockets, or something. you can’t be frustrated or sad. you can’t rail or complain. every single choice you made you knew how it’d play out before you made it but you made it any way. you made it cuz you wanted to. cuz you needed to. maybe that’s your archetype. maybe seeing obviously how people work but being unable to live by what you know is your fucking archetype.
